Getting the gumption. . .
Very grateful for the job I have. Means the world to me to know that there is income coming in, a means to provide for my children. . . with that being said there are still ambitions and goals for me to accomplish. So after dropping Jonny off today got going on the work that needed to be done. The girls and I cleaned the house a bit and then started the new year taking down the Christmas tree.
I have to say this was probably the best looking tree we had in years. Yes, I was a bit biased about the fact that it was a REAL TREE I was so amazed with the tree that we got, well and how I got it home, lol. I swear the guy at Menards thought I was plumb nuts too – asking him to stick it in the front passenger door and sliding it to the back rear passenger seat. But I Got it IN the car, and off I went driving home from Topeka to bring a real tree home. He shook his head more than a few times and I just smiled and told him – when a women sets her mind to getting something done weeeelll its gonna get done one way or the other . . . . big cheesy grin on my face. He just shook his head – crazy woman, lol. Aw well it didn’t matter I got it home and it put a big smile on the lady at the toll booth as I went through. Anyways it was all wrapped up and hard to see what it would really look like at Menards – but hey for $25.00 it couldn’t hurt to try. We unwrapped the tree and low and behold we had such a pretty tree!!! It put a big ole smile on my face. Sadly though Jonny wanted to do the manly thing and put the tree up all by himself he didn’t quite put the right kind of grooves in the bottom of the tree – okay so he didn’t put any and by the week of Christmas our poor tree just wouldn’t take anymore water. So today we said adue and took down all the ornaments and carried our beautiful tree outside . . . . dropping half the needles between here and there.
Went around fixing little things today: the Christmas bells that hang over the doorway, the candle holder, oh and this morning patched up Jonny’s camo pants . . . just putzy fixer upper things that had been needing to get done for sooo long. I kept thinking – okay where is that cape cuz I is a super fixin’ machine today, all I need is a master cylinder/abs unit and I would get my brakes completely up to par . . . . uggh poor reminder, have to find that unit sooon!!
Then it was time to start the second part of getting stuff done. . .. . sent out my resume, tax clearance and transcripts to a job in Wichita thru the state that pays almost 2.50 more an hour. Then I went online to search for anything local that might be listed. Saw a job posting again for the Girls Scouts and thought uh huh so it isn’t filled yet!!! Fixed up my cover letter and sent it along with my resume back out to them. This time though I got a confirmation email that they received it I had tried applying to the job once before, called them about it but there were technical difficulties apparently when I sent it because I don’t think they ever got it and I did not receive an email before. Either way though I will call them tomorrow at lunch and check on it. I would soooo die to have that job, just what I did as a coordinator and troop leader in Waite Park – and to be apart of the Girl Scout organization, ooh it would just be a joy to my spirit to be able to do that kind of work, to help bring girls into the program, to help them discover the joys of being a Girl Scout!! Saw a couple of part time jobs that I might be interested in too, so going to check them out tomorrow at lunch a bit more.
The first posting was for a bartender at Town Royal just down from the Noose: Friday, Saturday and some Sundays. I wasn’t lying when I told April that the only bar in town I would ever consider working at was the Noose, there was a reason for that at the time. . . . blue collar folks, regular everyday folks. Never really been in the Town Royal, never had a real desire to go in there. I might have stepped in the door once but I cant even remember doing that. Either way its not for me. . . . . just way too burnt out on folks who over-imbibed. I wish my conscious would let me go back to it cuz I really could use the money but for me well there are just some things that go a bit deeper than simply a job. I was able to do it before I think in large part because I couldn’t lie – had to be able to say honestly that I did not turn any job down, that I applied to every job that I could. Alcoholism has affected my life in so many ways. . . I can only handle seeing how it affects folks for a very little amount of time because I know what goes on at home, know why folks try to find a way to escape it and it eats away at my soul as I watch them. Its not everyone that it does that too, just some but golly those ones . . . . I cant just simply sit there and smile while I am serving up another drink to them.
Wowzer this gets going fast. . . . . before I knew it the day flew by. Prepped dinner for tomorrow – planning on posting the recipe and pic of the dish along with it tomorrow. So much to do tomorrow; work, call on the job posting, pick up Jonny from the hunt, and call on student loans (uggh something I am dreading but has to be done).