I have this dream. I know it is a silly dream but its still there hidden way below everything else this world and God throws at me. To one day have the companionship of a true friend, a best friend. I know the life I lead right now, the path I am on will not allow that. No man in his right mind would enter into my life, accept what is going on or even for that matter be willing to fight for what is going on. No man would enter into a home, a family and take on the responsiblities of another’s child let alone a child not even biologically connected to the mother. No man in his right mind would want to enter into the struggles that will entail, the sacrifices that ensue because someone somewhere could not care for their child and a woman, a simple woman with only a wish to help make things a little better with only a hope to somehow give a little comfort and solace, chose to help this child.
Its still a dream though. To have someone sit by my side and truly enjoy the music played on a violin by a child learning the notes. To have someone by my side to smile and tease the child, to bring the best out of the child. To have someone enjoy the simple treasures of a home and a family. A person to share a lazy Saturday afternoon fishing with. A person to share an evening cruising old dirt roads with the radio turned up and the wind gushing threw the windows. To have someone to enjoy a slice of apple pie or strawberry shortcake baked fresh that day. To know that someone truly appreciates the little moments in life and is not so concerned with what is going on outside of the small little world that we created together.
A dream to share the joys my children find and a dream to share in the joy of watching them succeed . . .watching them as they make good choices and find fulfillment within themselves. A dream in which we share common goals and aspirations that all come down to one simple thing. . . . building a strong family for years to come that passes along the simple joys of this life. A dream of sharing responsibility and work. A dream of toiling together to build something beyond ourselves that will last thru traditions and values rooted in the past. A dream of holding hands sitting on a porch swing when we are old looking out and within knowing that what we accomplished we did together.
It is a sacrifice I know I must give up and at moments grief comes over me for the dream must go. . . . only by God’s hand will a man come to this and want to partake in what is untold. A man sent by heaven and a man that stands strong not only in word but in faith, acts and principles of what is truly good, what God has told to do.
I leave my dream with you Lord. I am blessed to be on the path you have given me. Blessed to know you and trust you, and though I am weak and full of flaws I thank you for blessing me so. I do so treasure the path before me and I prommise not to wallow to long at what is lost.
Mathew 25:31-47
The Sheep and the Goats
31 “When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his glorious throne. 32 All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33 He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.
34 “Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36 I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’
37 “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38 When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39 When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’
40 “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’
41 “Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42 For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43 I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’
44 “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’
45 “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’
46 “Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.”
I know it is my dream also to always be your servant Lord, please help me as I follow this path. I thank you for giving me the heart, mind and spirit for the journey my family is about to undertake. I will feed the hungry, give drink to those that are thirsty, invite the stranger into my home welcoming them and making them feel at home, I will cloth them and I pray with your guidance and the Holy Spirit that my service may heal those afflicted. . . .
